My Interesting Week....

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you don't belong in the world and no one really cares about you? I'm having that kind of day... except I've had that kind of day all week long. It all started on Tuesday.... we had a choir concert. I really really liked a kid in my class (notice the D on LIKED). His name is Flirty (refer to the nicknames post if you have to). Flirty came over and sat by me while we were waiting for the concert to start. We started talking, just about random stuff. He made me laugh, I blushed a few times (or so I was told). ((Oh yes.... I forgot to add, Flirty has a girlfriend. . . she isn't very nice to me)). Everything was going great I thought, I was so happy, until.... it happened..

Flirty's girlfriend's group sings the song "My Guy". In the song, they have to kiss a boy on the cheek at random times. The boys in choir had to go up unwillingly, and so Flirty had to go up.... in his girlfriend's group. Instead of kissing Flirty on the cheek, she decided to plant one on him. I was not a happy camper. I became sad instantly. I even started crying, I know I know, pathetic. So I was sad. Then, my friend Blondie (refer to the nicknames) told me that I should just go up and tell him the truth: that I liked him. I chickened out (of course). SO she decided to tell him for me......

After school, I was talking to my dear friend Jill. Jill said she talked to Flirty, and that he said he loves me as a friend (cute..) but he could never love me as anything more (harsh...?). That crossed the line. I was BAWLING!!! I couldn't keep the tears in any longer. My good friend Fire came up and was hugging me and comforting me, because I was a mess and needed comforting. It was so sweet of Fire :)

So the next day, I just thought "Forget about it Kenzie, you'll be fine. Just treat it like a normal day.". That's exactly what I did. But, unfortunately, Flirty didn't make eye contact with me, he didn't talk to me, he didn't even really notice I was there. It hurt.

And finally, today I went over to my friend Oompa Loompa's house after school. She lives close to Flirty. So they walk home together. I was SCARED to DEATH!! Talk about awkward.. but instead, he talked to me and it wasn't awkward. He was making jokes, we were all talking, and it was just nice.... which confused me. The day before, he hadn't said a word, today, he was Mr. Social. It made me cry during choir.... I just need to get over this kid and MOVE ON!!!

Okay enough about Flirty.... I'm actually gonna talk about the good things that happened this week. Well after my horrible day on Tuesday, when Ashton (I'm done using nicknames!) hugged me, I noticed I was soooo much happier. Then, the next day, he walked up to me and Kaitlyn, walked PAST Kaitlyn, and hugged me. Then he turned, awkwardly, and hugged Kaitlyn. :) At lunch that day, I got about 3 more hugs. Then today, when I was sad at lunch, he sat next to me and was there to talk to me. I decided something.. if Ashton cares so much about me and my feelings, maybe I should like a guy like him.... or maybe I should just like HIM! So I've grown a little crush.... :) He is a sweet kid, and such a cutie. He was there for me during my hard times, so I have to make sure I'm always there for him. :) He made my bad week a little better.

Okay enough about boys.... besides, they have cooties.... jk :) I better get going though, I'll post about the "family" thing at our lunch table later :) hahaha. bye.